Let your past determine you!

People say

   'Let not your past

   determine your future'

They say, 

   'Let go off the past

   Move on, keep on'

They say, 

   'Don't look back

   Leave it behind

   Let it not

   hold, entangle, imprison you'

Which past are they talking about?

For they don't know what happened

Surely it determine me 

    I am my past

    I am what happened

I say,

    Look back,

    Dig back,

    Let your past determine you.

I say,

    Dig further

    Not just to your hurt

    Not just to where you mess up

But,

    Dig decades further

    Dig centuries back

    Pass your past

    Dig 2000 years back

    Till you find the cross.

  

Where there is, 

    Healing before you even got hurt

    Forgiveness before you even mess up

    Redemption before you even got lost

    Love before you even experience hatred.

I say, 

   Look back

   Let your past determine you

   Dig back

   But dig further

   Dig deeper

   Till you find the cross

   Till you find Jesus!!

I, the branch

You, the vine

I remain in you 

remain in me oh Lord

for no branch will bear fruit

if not in the vine

neither can I

if not in You

Remain in me Lord

I in You

then I bear much fruit

for I am crucified, 

died and raised up with You

I no longer live but You in me

who loved and gave yourself for me

My Lord,

Apart from You

I am none,nobody

But with You in me

I am whole, complete

Can do all things

You have done

can do even more

But without thee my Lord

What is the breath in me?

What are the emotions I felt?

What knowledge is there within me?

neither can I do anything

or can be any

if not for you

For the branch without the vine

Is nothing but dry shattered

thrown to fire.

I hold on to You my Lord

surround me with you love

Keep me close to You

Never let me go

I hold You to your words

For You are faithful 

But, me who is still in flesh...

Never leave me my Lord

nor forsake me

Help me my Lord

for I am nothing & nobody

without thee my Lord.

 April 12, 08

My heavy heart...

My heart is heavy within me;

Walking by the water

filled by the light of heaven

In His presence;

His touch in the blowing wind

His sound in the dancing waters

His love in the air

A smiling moon over the sky

Love burning in my heart

It's smoke ascending to heaven.

But still my heart is heavy within me;

Dropped like a rain

I see tears of my redeemer.

Loud like the lighting

I heard sobbing of the almighty.

Over lost souls,

Alive but dead

Seeing but blind

Walking in darkness

Bind by the evil of the world

Seeking, searching,longing,

For what they not know

But for the message of love

For the gospel!

Blessed are the feet of those...

Blessed are they...

Usame  Señor!

(I found this in a piece of paper, I remember I wrote it in hawassa some years back)